Short Story

I wanted to share this.  It’s a short story I wrote for my creative writing class.  I want to just leave this here.  Yes, it’s loosely based on my own story, though I never walked through the doors she did, I still feel what she felt.  I would love to hear thoughts! Phoenix She remembered […]

“Episodes”

I can feel them starting again.  I don’t even know what to call them.  I think I’ll call them an “attack” or “episode,” so I will continue using that term. When I say episode, what I’m referring to is a PTSD episode.   You are triggered by something, maybe you don’t even realize it and it […]

Living With PTSD Pt. 1

Obviously, if you have been following me for awhile, you already know that I have PTSD, as well as major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder.  The things I will be talking about is to further explain how my PTSD effects me from what I have learned about PTSD through my tough journey the past […]

My body remembers….

A year ago, I would have said that the hardest thing to deal with concerning my PTSD was the emotional triggers and flashbacks.  They haunted my every move, new triggers popped up everyday, I never knew what would cause them and I most certainly never knew what kind of result I would have from said […]

Year in review.

As stated in my last post, I don’t believe anything changes just because the number of the year changed.  It happens with months as well and we aren’t celebrating every time the month changes; pr the season; or the day.  You get my point. But I often look back at how I was a year […]

Happy New Years

I’m not going to tell you how much this year is going to be different, what my resolutions are going to be, because ultimately a new year is just a new day, which we get everyday. Just because the number changes, doesn’t mean anything, the date changes too, everyday, the month as well.  It’s the […]

Med Free *Cannabis* only

I have elected to be taken off all my meds.  The only thing I am taking is my birth control pills and I use cannabis for my PTSD, anxiety, and depression symptoms. At first it started out accidentally.  I was accustomed to taking them at night before bed. But then I got a night job […]

A little Update

  Well, followers, I am alive. I got so busy with work and life that I never found time to write.  I had time, I guess, I just didn’t make the time.  I find, for me, once I break the habit of writing (or drawing or even working out), it becomes hard to start up […]

What you allow is what will continue

I self harmed. But I’m not really going to write about that.  I’m going to write about what it taught me.  As I laid there, sad, crying, wanting more than anything for someone to come and be with me, like Andres, I sent him messages saying that I was cutting and even though he said […]